I read in overcoming MS about doing work on yourself, I didn't hink that applied to me. I was wrong. I began meditating in May 2012 and have been discovering things abot myself since then. Yesterday I was replying to a forum when I became aware of my limitations & how MS has been affecting me for the past 20 years or so. The times when I have put my heart into something and then been physically exhausted for long perios afterward. It is a pattern that has followed relationshop loss, job stress & church, family & becoming a parent. I was not really aware of my limitations until I wrote out a reply about me being a stay at home Mum & why I am. I think it is of great benefit to the children and I don't have the energy to work and be a wife, parent & housekeeper. I just don't and that is OK. This is where I am and I can do heapd but I can't do everything and I am OK with that. I don't even want to do everything, I need a lot of sleep and rest. That is OK and it is what I need not what I expect of everyone.
With the Olympics I am have been painfully aware that they are made of different stuff than me. I have tried in the past to push myself & it has not worked for me. I need to work with how I am made and not against it. I find that liberating.

ovemberr 2011

Well its one step forwards then fall backwards! I had an MS relapse. It has made me feel nauseous and interfered with my vision. While it is uncomfortable I do not have any pain & I can see, just not as well as before.

today I am going to the nuerologist & he wants me to start on the new oral medication that has just come on the pbs, I think I might! I do like to be able to see, drive, read and function.

The tricky part for me is the was the symptoms fluctuate throughout the day & night. I felt almost normal before bed last night, but unwell in the night. MS is a strange companion.

Feel like I need to learn againwhat I can do for my own wellness, which is a good thing.

Here we go again!

After trying the paleo diet for 6 - 9 months, struggling a sugar addiction all the while, I ended up with another bout of SIBO, constipation and outrageous heartburn and amine intolerance! Not fun.
I did not feel like a failure to quit as it just wasn't working.
Now I am eating bread & rice and can enjoy a lot more variety in my diet, within some unfortunate boundaries.

I am still having trouble with heartburn & constipation (periodically).

I have been seeing a naturopath and she now thinks I may have heavy metal poisoning, I cam e home with the pathology forms to get tested at my convinience...here we go again!

Feeling lousy again!

Have been having ongoing problems with energy levels, fatigue, constipation and I had another lot of hives in the last few weeks.

Not fun.

Have been to the doctor. He wrote out some laxatives to try.
Have been to the naturopath and I told her I thought I was having trouble with the SIBO. That was last week but now I am not so sure.
Have, today, been & had Bowen therapy. The practioner has a gluten & dairy intolerance, breaks out in rashes & is interested in all things diet & health.

I think I am overloaded with amines, again.

I went on the low chemical diet & that cleared up my reactions, so promptly forgot about it. It's back!

Time for me to go on a low chemical (amines specifically) diet and set myself some guidelines I think.

Looking forward to feeling better, again.

Jaw & hand pain...OOOwwww!

I waas at the doctor last week & told hime of my jaw pain. It hurts, aches actually, on the right side. I has been getting worse recently& my right hand also aches. My upper middle back hurts too, what is going on?

I have sleeping with my fist clenched under my pillow on my right side, that is what is going on! I have also been attempting to read 50 books in a year.

Sleeping is causing the

Reading!

This year I have been attempting to read 50 books! I like reading & have enjoyed some 22 books so far, but..

The way I sit while I read causes me upper middle back pain. Drat. I either need to find a new way to posture myself while I read or read less.

What would you do?

I've tried physio, massage and perscription drugs.

How does one learn to sit and read another way?

I lost something along the way...

I was talking with some Mums yesterday & one was hanging it on the other & they were laughing. Pretty normal stuff. I am overly serious and after years of my attempted jokes back firing I don't have the confidence to be playful like in conversation anymore. Whether things are as I think I am not sure, my dialogue internally is negative and that, not situations or confrontations with people, is the bigger problem. I have certainly had some reactions from people, but not many, and not enough to leave all bent out of shape.

Have I lost part of me?

The fun lighthearted part?

Where has it gone & can it be coaxed back?

I'd just like the voices in my heard that go over everything I do & say to 'shut up' for a while so I can relax and be me. They don't serve me they harm me and tell me I am not normal, creepy, a pest, a bit weird etc. Enough!

Where is the off switch please?